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ow, this morning I'm so proud of myself (although it was caused by muscles discomfort and lack of appetite).  Went to morning market very early (before 6am!), cooked, and eat proper breakfast (with better appetite). Good to have my body moves so I could have better morning nap. But after morning nap ends, those muscles backkk to pegel2.. 

Kebanyakan sendirian di rumah mengakibatkan pegal2 badan dan otak, bosan, gak selera makan, terlalu banyak browsing, dan pinginnya krimbat, pijet -aka ngabisin duit-. tp 'diselamatkan' oleh gak boleh nyetir dulu. Meskipun imbas lainnya adalah mengakibatkan gregetan yang cukup lumayan dalam hati karena gak bisa nyelesaikan hal yang biasanya bisa diselesaikan sendiri. hhhrrhh... tapi, kata orang nikmati aja, karena abis ini mungkin gak bisa lagi leyeh2 sampe mati gaya tingkat dewa. *masa' sih*

presence is not just merely 'being present physically'. these days, mobility and time are too precious to value ourselves just an object. apparently, to have flowing quality conversations is more meaningful, virtually or when we met. that's what makes us feel we have each other. but, still, eventually, nothing beats physical presence. and, it's a hope.. for the future..

i want to learn to cook many things. but i think, his eagerness to eat what i cook motivates me more.   Like, i don't see the joy of eating myself. I'd cook if somebody is really look into it. I don't cook well, but i'm willing to learn. But, if I sense lack of eagerness, which means those cooked food left untouched or too many leftovers, then it releases me from guilty feeling from the thought that i don't see any necessary to cook. But, i wish i can be a good cook for my children though.... I always dream of children who always brag that their mom's dishes are fantastic.