.... :)

Never can't thank enough to my strong well-determined husband since days before our baby arrived. His caring is tremendously enormous. Seems like impossible to get through these days without him.  And, finally, now I see mom at her best. Raising children is always challenging, it takes courage to act for other human.  Baby Ray, I'm trying kiddo, to give what's best for you.

Baby Ray is special. He needs to be 'cooked' longer.. :)

today's is baby ray's EDD ( estimated due date).. 40 weeks in my belly.. nothing's happening, just another day with him moving quiet a lot and mommy's starting not to feel helpless, get used to with this weight and any kind of stinging push.. and, still waiting for the real call.. hey, kiddo, kamu betah sekali di dalam peruuuuttt... 😂😂😂😂 bahkan pak dokter ngasih kamu waktu seminggu lagi.. 

Pas badan remek habis-habisan dan mood tercecer, nikmat-senikmatnya mandi pake air anget panas ples wangi sampo natur. Subhanallah enaknya. :3

ow, this morning I'm so proud of myself (although it was caused by muscles discomfort and lack of appetite).  Went to morning market very early (before 6am!), cooked, and eat proper breakfast (with better appetite). Good to have my body moves so I could have better morning nap. But after morning nap ends, those muscles backkk to pegel2.. 

Kebanyakan sendirian di rumah mengakibatkan pegal2 badan dan otak, bosan, gak selera makan, terlalu banyak browsing, dan pinginnya krimbat, pijet -aka ngabisin duit-. tp 'diselamatkan' oleh gak boleh nyetir dulu. Meskipun imbas lainnya adalah mengakibatkan gregetan yang cukup lumayan dalam hati karena gak bisa nyelesaikan hal yang biasanya bisa diselesaikan sendiri. hhhrrhh... tapi, kata orang nikmati aja, karena abis ini mungkin gak bisa lagi leyeh2 sampe mati gaya tingkat dewa. *masa' sih*

presence is not just merely 'being present physically'. these days, mobility and time are too precious to value ourselves just an object. apparently, to have flowing quality conversations is more meaningful, virtually or when we met. that's what makes us feel we have each other. but, still, eventually, nothing beats physical presence. and, it's a hope.. for the future..