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I've been super-blessed. Maybe it's not me, but him, my big boy Rayendra. Joyful pregnancy time, surviving birth wounds, surviving new sleeping habit, abundant breastmilk, and confidence in breastfeeding in public* or expressing breastmilk in public**."  I remember I went through hard times and it wasn't easy, but today I don't feel those burden me. Those are proofs to myself that I can be better and somehow those set me free (of what? Don't know, leh , but that's what I feel)  Oleh karena itu, saya: 1. Harus bersyukur 2. Gak boleh sombong 3. Gak boleh sotoy 4. Inget berbagi, minimal senyum kali ya, muka asem ke laut aja ya 😄 *) with cover, of course **) with cover, of course. Like, on my working desk, but not in meeting room - probably I'll do it if the attendees are in my circle, which no way it would happened. Or, ikea restaurant, done that. There are still lots of blessings, of course. Some can be measured, most can't. Those had helped us to bu...

Ibu adalah seorang manusia, mungkin saya bisa lupa itu. Ibu juga pernah berbuat salah, ibu juga tidak sempurna. Lalu,  Apa yang menjadi penting? Beruntung saya, menemukan beberapa. Ada yang saya temukan lewat tatap mata, canda, atau kasih sayang anaknya. Pelajaran yang tanpa saya sadar saya pelajari. Saya tidak muluk-muluk, harapan saya hari ini bukan menjadi ibu yang sempurna. Karena saya tahu saya tidak  mungkin. Saya berdoa untuk hari-hari yang hangat, mengasihi, bermakna, dan saling merindukan. Menjadi Ibu yang baik - ketika makna 'baik' bisa begitu relatif. Ibu itu, ya, saya hari ini.

Never can't thank enough to my strong well-determined husband since days before our baby arrived. His caring is tremendously enormous. Seems like impossible to get through these days without him.  And, finally, now I see mom at her best. Raising children is always challenging, it takes courage to act for other human.  Baby Ray, I'm trying kiddo, to give what's best for you.

Baby Ray is special. He needs to be 'cooked' longer.. :)

today's is baby ray's EDD ( estimated due date).. 40 weeks in my belly.. nothing's happening, just another day with him moving quiet a lot and mommy's starting not to feel helpless, get used to with this weight and any kind of stinging push.. and, still waiting for the real call.. hey, kiddo, kamu betah sekali di dalam peruuuuttt... 😂😂😂😂 bahkan pak dokter ngasih kamu waktu seminggu lagi.. 

Pas badan remek habis-habisan dan mood tercecer, nikmat-senikmatnya mandi pake air anget panas ples wangi sampo natur. Subhanallah enaknya. :3

ow, this morning I'm so proud of myself (although it was caused by muscles discomfort and lack of appetite).  Went to morning market very early (before 6am!), cooked, and eat proper breakfast (with better appetite). Good to have my body moves so I could have better morning nap. But after morning nap ends, those muscles backkk to pegel2..