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what's your dream, dear? please answer me from your deepest mind. if it needs to go through the highest mountain or the deepest ocean, please go. I can wait.

Saya: "gimana rotinya?" (roti goreng telor) Doi: "gak papa." Saya: ".........."

Deg-degan deh. Gmn ntar :-s

For me it's quiet weird. I married a guy, Erlangga Baskara: a little bangor boy who seemed screaming annoyingly like: "aaaaaaaakkkk!!!!" ._.

Berdebar-debar. Baru kali ini saya pergi dengan perasaan seperti ini. Rasanya seperti sedang bersiap pergi jauh. Baru kali ini perjalanan terasa lama dan seresah ini. Tapi, saya tidak boleh lupa ini adalah perjalanan yang baik, let's make it fun. Saya tak perlu lagi menunggu satu, dua, tiga bulan lagi untuk bertemu si mas. Asyik. Ugh.. I wish i can tell how anxious I am.

18 november dini hari. Malam ini saya sudah cukup capek keluar rumah dan berharap bisa tidur cepat. Mas juga, dan pileknya lagi kambuh. Saya akhirnya memilih tidur sendiri di kasur dengan bantal saya. Sambil mengingat-ingat seperti apa rasanya single, tidur sendiri menunggu hari besar datang. Hanya kurang seprai kesayangan yang masih di cucian dan bedcover yang dipakai si mas. :')

What is the purpose? The life purpose. The trip was a real heart-pumping. I'm wondering what was the uneasy feeling. At a moment i stopped to think. What is the purpose? The life purpose? Did I come crossing the country border only to serve my life to one man? I think there are so much rather than service. I'm here for love, but I wish for joy, happiness, grace, and passion here. Love for the passion and passion to love. But, in a moment something switched my mind. I was looking on someone beside me, i saw a friend for a life. A tired one whom taking me away with him. The past two weeks were exceptionally exhausting, hopefully a great one for him. Then, I looked at my thin reflection on the taxi window. I smile and i say to myself that this is a new start, a new beginning. :)

Today is such a disaster. Hope tomorrow will be much better. Aamin. For a better tomorrow, never give up!

Kadang rasanya seperti sedang berlari sendiri. Berpacu dengan waktu. Sendiri.