I'm always obsessed of success. I always want to be recognized, I bother doing stuffs to be seen. I forget to think what's actually need to be done and what's beyond. So, it always about me and I tend to neglect important things that I need to look after. Things in my life proved that I must struggle harder than people I envy (or I may say I'm jealous with). To accept is one thing, and to be define my own criteria is other thing. So, what? I have to learn (again and again) to live in present moment, focus on what I can push with my own criteria. And of course, not being anxious what might happen using someone else's shoes. Theoretically, haha.