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Kenapa mencari "kamu" itu sungguh penting?
Kenapa pikiranku banyak memikirkan "kamu"?
Kenapa banyak aspek dlm hidupku kukaitkan dengan "kamu"?
Sehebat apa "kamu"?
Apa iya menemukan "kamu" membuat hidupku tenang?
Apa iya menemukan "kamu" itu membuatku tak merasakan kesepian?
"Kamu" dimana?
Aku kesal!
Aku marah!
Aku meratap!
Aku ditinggalkan!

Apakah "kamu" itu ada?
Apa memang "kamu" itu jawaban doaku?
Kenapa aku menangis menulis tentang "kamu"?
Aku tak ingin berpikir aku butuh "kamu".
Kenapa aku tak bisa berhenti memikirkan "kamu"?
"Kamu", pemandangan pertama ketika bangun di pagi hari
"Kamu", "kamu", "kamu".

Oh Allah, apa yang paling kubutuhkan?
Rasanya bukan "kamu"
Aku butuh penerimaan, identitas, kepercayaan diri, keyakinan diriku
Dan aku butuh diriku sendiri.
Yang selalu kucari dari "kamu"

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